Hello!!! So much has happened over the past few days that I forgot to blog, or should I say was too affected to blog :(

Let me first start out with Wednesday. Did not really do much other than having lunch with my ex-colleagues (who are the perm staff in the company) during my summer internship stint. It was a great time of catching up, and also absolutely interesting listening to them gossip a little about what goes on in the office. But most importantly, i see them as elder brothers and sisters in the industry. I value each and every of their input and advice as I am currently still undecided on my career path! I really appreciate every single word they've put in to advice me and help me out! They paid for my dinner as well, argh I feel so bad. Its not as though their like 20 years my senior, they are merely just 3 or 4 years older than me! All in all, it was a wonderful night, both company wise and food wise :)

Thursdayyyy!! The day that disaster happened. The day started out good, I actually had a call from a few schools requesting me to do relief teaching, but I turned them down. In fact, one of the schools was the school where Mike works. Yeah i'm not kidding. I have deposited my resumes and stuff all over the eastern schools since like 3 years ago. But what coincidence right? Anyway, I doubt I will teach in Mike's school even if they call me up for real. How awkward it would be if we meet in school - I don't want him to get the wrong idea as well that I'm purposefully trying to get opportunities to see him, as much as I want to. How ideal it would be right if we were together for real and working together as well. Anyway, sorry for digressing - this is NOT the disaster! Disaster struck me during my tennis session in the afternoon. The hitting started off well, but unfortunately I had a really bad fall and I sprained and twisted my ankle very badly. The doctor said it was tantamount to a 3rd grade sprain. I could barely stand or walk after the fall. My friend almost had to piggy back me to the toilet because I was really in pain. At that moment I felt so hopeless, I was worried that my ability to play tennis would be affected. I do not wish to lose my favourite sport!! :( Sigh.. I was in pain both physically and emotionally. Soon after, I sms-ed Mike to tell him about my fall, but I didn't get any reply. I sort of expected it. But of course I was sad that he didn't ask further about my sprain or shower some concern. What was I thinking anyway, the last thing Mike would need is a burden to him so I better recover soon.

I was in pain throughout the night till I had to perpetually elevate my leg so that fluid would stop flowing to my ankle. The swelling was absolutely horrendous. The next day, I immediately went to a sinseh, he's pretty famous - along upper paya lebar road. Oh my gosh, I did not know what to expect it was my first time going for such a treatment as it was my first sprain, and it had to be such a bad one. Soon after it was my turn, and the sinseh looked really fierce. I was terrified omg. He asked me to lay on the bed and soon after he was right at my sprained ankle. Before I know it, he grabbed it and twisted it like 2 times. I SCREAMED. YES i freaking SCREAMED! I think it was loud enough for the people outside to hear. How embarrassing. Even the sinseh's wife had to come in to comfort me and check out whats going on. But to be honest, it was a hell of a pain, and I was completely caught offguard, totally unprepared for his actions! Ouch! Seriously! Then after he massaged my leg and it got better, it was just that 10seconds of pain, ABSOLUTE pain! :( Lastly he bandaged my leg up and told me not to over exert and come back again in a few days. I managed to limp slightly better after the treatment, but there was still pain when I walked.

Before I knew it, it is Saturday and I could only stay at home the entire day due to my poor mobility :( Had dinner with my family and that's about it. I am completely cooped up at home. I miss Mike :( I actually dreamt about him the night before. I can't remember what it was, but I know it was a good dream. I don't know why I'm still thinking about him this way. I can't help myself. I really want to meet him soon to have a good chat and know each other better. I miss him :'( What should I do? I don't dare to sms him as well :( Let's hope tmr is a better day and I can stand up on my feet and get it together both physically and mentally soon!

Anyway here's my summation stanza from the day. Adapted from the song Flying Without Wings, by Westlife:


Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine

Good Night!

-Werd