Hii, sorry for the crankiness yesterday. Today I woke up feeling better, first itinerary for the day was to head to parkway parade to try wearing contacts for the first time. I FREAKED OUT. I felt so disappointed with myself. 30mins and I still couldn't get even a single lens into my eye. I told the optician that I would come back another day when i'm more mentally prepared. I don't know, I didn't expect the pulling of eyelids and all to be so scary.. I was grabbing my pants the entire time and the optician could feel my nervousness. It was pretty bad and awkward. Thankfully there were no other customers in the shop. I will be heading down to parkway tomorrow again to try putting on the lenses. I do hope to succeed. I'm pretty tired of glasses. I think I look horrid in them :(

Anyway, after that I met my friend, lets call her X. Met her for lunch and we had a super HTHT for 3hrs. Just so you know, HTHT means heart to heart talk :) Yup. So it was a good time of catching up and stuff. Following that, I met another friend Y for dinner. It was my birthday treat from her. We had awesome ramen at clarke quay, followed by a super awesome dessert at laurent bernard. It was a chocolate souffle!! I have never really tasted a proper one in my life? The other times that i've tasted a choco souffle were probably the imitations, and fake ones people simply cook some random choc cake, put it into a bowl and term it a souffle. This very one itself took about 20mins to prepare, I knew I was in for a treat :) It tasted awesome!! I am definitely going there again. Plus, the ambience was amazing, I think it would be an ideal place I can introduce my partner to in future.

On the way home, I got a little emotional once again. But I guess its natural. When i'm alone I still think of Mike. I had this random thought and I asked myself the question: Do I regret my birthday wishes that were made? My answer still remains the same, absolutely no. I was glad I wished to see Mike again and I got it. If I could wish again for anymore birthday cakes, I would wish that I can hang out with him more again. I seriously wish for more opportunities to see him and be around him as his presence really comforts me emotionally. I haven't really really felt happy since last thursday - our fateful meeting at his void deck. I miss him.. I really do.. I don't know what else to say... What should I do? Or more like, what can I do?

Help :(

-Werd