Today was Boxing Day and it was a pretty topsy turvy day for me today I must say?
My plan for today was to head to the Driving Centre to register and sign up for my BTT, followed by heading for a haircut and some shopping before heading down to a christmas gathering at night.
Unfortunately, my phone took ages to charge as I forgot to charge it the night before, and before I knew it it was already 3pm. Which meant I had only time to do one activity before heading to the party. Guess what I chose? Haircut of course!

I made my way to parkway parade and got my haircut. Prior to cutting, I told the hairdresser that I wanted my hair short and thin, but not too short. But most importantly, I told her I wanted to keep my side burns. I remember Mike said he liked my side burns on the first day we met :) Soon, I got my haircut done pretty quickly without much waiting. Love my short and spikey hair :)
Soon after, turns out I did more than just a haircut! I then headed to Dome Cafe for afternoon tea while writing some christmas cards for the people at the party later. Yes I know, I went to Dome Cafe for a reason - to relive the moment I had the other time with Mike. If he had not introduced this place to me, I would probably be chilling at some other more conventional coffee places like Starbucks or something. Anyway, turns out I really like the place! Guess what i ordered? NO! not the drink I had the other time that Mike ordered for me. I'm not really a coffee person (but this does not mean I don't drink coffee at all!!), so i ordered tea - my favourite Earl Grey Tea. The biscotti that came with it tasted awesome!! I remember Mike offered his biscuit to me the other time because I resisted the cheesecake due to my cheese intolerance. Arghh I feel so bad, should have just told him straight that I don't eat cheese the minute he tried to order something for me. The taste of the biscotti did in a way, remind me of the previous meeting I had with him and I missed that feeling, that warmth :( even though I was ironically freezing the other day as I had just ran in the rain and the air conditioning was not helping me as well.

Next, being the adventurous me, I decided to try out something new again. Guess what, I went to make a pair of contact lenses. Like how random can i get! The optician was really nice and friendly I felt so safe in her hands, haha. To be honest I still don't get how they test your eyesight altering the lenses, blocking out your left/right eye and asking you to read the alphabets, because sometimes I do simply guess the alphabets and it might jollywell be my lucky day! But of course if its really blur, I do voice it out. But on several occasions it might just be ambigiously blur you know, like distinguising 3 and 8. I guess that's how they categorize astigmatism if i'm not wrong. Anyway, I have a supreme fear of touching the eyeballs, I seriously don't know how i'm going to cope putting on the lenses on thursday! She did some eye testing for me using this machine which pushes your eye bags down to view the area under your eye balls. omg I felt so eye-raped. It felt uncomfortable and like something was in me at the wrong place and arghh I'm really worried about putting the actual lenses on!! Help!! :'( I might just freak out!

Ok, soon it was time to head to the party. The party started off great! We had food packet-ed from a market at Bedok, our favourite haunt! Everyone from the east side should know this place! Awesome food, especially for supper! Soon it was time for gift exchange. I was extremely lucky in my opinion, I won the biggest present in terms of size! Haha, a mini pool table from mini toons! yay! Unfortunately, I think I bought a really crappy gift. My friend who got my gift seemed unimpressed and disappointed. I felt extremely bad. I know its the season of giving and I do believe people should be appreciative no matter what. However his actions did not seem appreciative at all. Nevertheless I can only blame myself for getting such a crappy gift :( I bought hair dye - a suggestion from my friend. Should have stuck to what I believed in, getting a souvenir or something safer like maybe a mug or facial/body products or something. I was pretty affected by it throughout the entire night. Even during the subsequent cake cutting ceremony to celebrate me and my other friend's birthday, I appeared happy but I was actually feeling really down. I felt as though the other guy who got my present was upset or something and I wanted to just bury myself somewhere. Argh, typical introvert mechanism right? I think i'm such a super introvert. But finally, everything was completed - cakes eaten, pictures taken. We just sat there and soon it was time to head home. In a way, I did feel relieved to leave the scene as I was utterly disappointed with both myself as well as how today turned out.

On my way home I wished I could talk to someone about this, I probably needed someone to turn to. I did not dare tell my friends who were present there about how I felt as they might think that I'm thinking too much and over reacting, or simply trying to evade the fault of getting a crappy gift. I did not want to appear gossipy/bitchy. I very much wanted to sms Mike and tell him that I'm feeling down and if possible, lend me a listening ear :( But I knew that was wishful thinking for 2 reasons. 1. He probably would think that I'm kicking up a fuss over nothing again and giving him unnecessary pressure to respond to me. 2. Its 12am and he's probably already sound asleep and I should not disturb him as he might be working tomorrow as well. He needs to fine tune his body clock in preparation for the commencement of school.

I'll get by! Its been nights like these - lonely, silent and full of self reflection, and I've been though them all. Once again I just hope to sleep quickly and forget my sorrows! Tomorrow would be a better day I hope!! Although I'm not optimistic - as I have nothing planned other than heading to the driving school to register for a license. But, lets just leave that to tomorrow. Mike told me not to think of what ifs, as well as think too much and be more patient with what's to come. That is what I will do and hence I shall just await what tomorrow brings. Let's just hope its good news :)

Till then, good night man :)

-Werd